Walking on a bumpy road

“Go for it! Don’t wait! Don’t sit there and do nothing! Seek for the thing you want.”

These are the words some of the people told me when they finished reading my blog. To set the record straight, I am. I am not waiting, nor that I am just desperately looking. It is just the pace that some of us take to go looking for something that we want.

There are some issues that I would like to acknowledge to the very few people who are concerned about my negative blogs. I agree that I write sometimes, the saddest, and in a way asking people for some pettiness, but I only write when I feel frustrated, sad or maybe bewildered by some events. It is seldom that I do write something of the category of “Happy Thoughts”. As a matter of fact, I don’t even write to tell people that I am happy. They can see me if I am happy but never in this blog. Perhaps it is this reason that most of the time that people think that I am a sad, negative and a pessimistic man.

Let’s shed some light on this topic. First of all, it is not that we are not looking for love or happiness, we are, but should we be desperately looking? It is just that when we find it, does it guarantee that it will work out fine? Answer, NO! There is no such guarantee that when we look for a person, that the love and happiness is returned when we are giving. It is a trial and error. The sad thing is that when we try and try, and it fails, it gets very frustrating that we just don’t want to go looking, but just let it come by itself. If it happens, let it happen, if it does not, are we going to curse? Who should we blame? There is no one to blame, so life goes on.

And even if we are desperately seeking, aggressively going after the other person, what do you think the other person would feel? “This person is psycho” might crop up in their mind. Let’s reverse the role, should the person desperately and aggressively goes after us, do we not feel that the person is a little cuckoo and you would wish this person just get out of your life?

The right to have the love and happiness is not only from ours, but it is also gained from the other person. If we don’t have that, we walk on alone. We are not the one who has the say in everything, but has to be a 2-way communication. We don’t have the right to tell what the person should do, nor should the other to tell us what we should do. We have the right to choose, so does the other party.

Yes, the road sometimes can be bumpy and dark; sometimes the road is easy to walk like a cool sunny day. And hence, some might feel the journey that I walk, the question is… “How long are we going to enjoy the cool sunny day?” An answer to this, no one knows. We have ups and downs. So perhaps these few months, my road was rather bumpy, and yet, I still walk on.