Quest

Too much to ask
A simple request
Too little to embark
When there is no quest

Quest that is denied
Cannot be appealed
All seems comes to an end
Or set to be damned

Quest forward
Hard to trudge
Pushing without a road
Pushing to edge

Seeing of empty spaces
Fearing of darkness
Hearing of nothingness
Fearing of loneliness

Little to shine
Running to find
A little path to pace
Hoping discover something valued

Nothing much to ask
Nothing much to seek
But it is all deep inside us
Quest denied then commences

Knock, knock…is it clear?

Sometimes when you knock on the door, you could find what you’re looking for, but sometimes, not. To pass through this door, sometimes it easy to get in, sometimes you are not allowed; sometimes you invite yourself to leave before the host asks you to come in.

But what if it is this particular time, you manage to get into the door, but later to find out that they have been hiding things that they would not like you to see?

Apparently, those people who have been hiding things in the closet or basement would reveal sooner or later. Just as when we are getting comfy over the house sofa, you suddenly found something that you don’t like to see.

Some doors are open with the closet or basements open, letting you to see what they have inside, and it is up to us whether we would like to get comfy in the house.

Knocking on the door sounds like a salesman trying hard to sell things, and if we get the idea of how some shun off the salesman, I guess you could get idea how this would feel when we are being slammed at the door sometimes. Keyword: THICK SKIN

Trying too hard is sometimes tiring, trying too little, you get nowhere. I learned something through the experience of knocking on the doors. Regardless whether they are hiding something or not, do not get yourself too comfy till you are very sure that you’ve checked every nook and cranny of the house before calling a SAFE ZONE.

Tai-chi Masters

In the corporate organization, big or small, there are some Managers that really manage; makes the call of any decisions that comes and delegate duties accordingly and in a way, fight for their staff, taking the fall, making himself or herself responsible over the mistakes that are done.

But there are some, who manages, but in a way hopefully things will go alright, but if the problems crop up, he or she blames the others (the staff) for the blunders. We call these people the Tai-Chi Masters.

Scenario:

Staff: Hey, I have an idea that could increase the efficiency of our department. But it needs some commitment from the management.

Manager: Hmm, I think it might be good, why not you lead this little project of yours and see how it goes.

Staff: OK.

Assuming the little project didn’t go that well. And when the board of directors asked why has there been a problem in the manager’s department, he/she might have said, “Well, I didn’t put up with the staff decision to work on it. It was just an idea that I thought it might be good, but not to go ahead.”

This of course saves the ass of the manager, but not the staff, ending up getting a bad remark on their appraisals or even worse, getting fired.

Now this is what we call Tai-Chi, pushing the fault that was made by the manager to the staff, making the staff look bad.

This is just a simple scenario, but I bet there are lots of different scenarios that the bosses would save their own asses than to protect their staff. But if the project was good, the glory would be theirs and less on their staff, maybe by saying to the directors, “Well, I thought of it for sometime, so I decided to have a go at it”

It is not easy to work with this kind of people, staff takes the fall for all the mistakes that is done, but the glory will be theirs for the taking.

Frustrating it is at times when we come across these kinds of people, and if it just happens to happen this way, get a simple black and white. The Tai-Chi Master won’t be able to avoid a blow if there is such black and white being used against them if any blunder occurs. But if it seems that these managers never change their bad habits, it is best to look for a transfer or even look for another job that has managers that really leads you and helps you to learn to climb up the corporate ladder than those who just steps on your hands not letting you climb the ladder.

Reject, reject....

The ordeal of going through rejection is sometimes very hurtful. But to think about it, we might have done the same thing to the other and in return for doing that, you’d get the taste of being rejected.

When we are interested in someone, and try many ways to get this person’s attention, but in the end, the person might just say, “I don’t think it’s going to work out between us.” These particular words actually hit you so hard that you feel that someone has shot an arrow to your heart piercing it with the feeling of pain. We seek to find out the reason why this is happening to us, and in the end, the negativity in us builds so much that at times we look down on ourselves that we might not even want to take another step forward to look for another. Fishes in the sea might as well be swimming, but we just don’t have the mood to catch it up and say, perhaps this fish tastes good.

Come to think of it, think about the other party that has been pursuing us and we just couldn’t care less and think it’s not right for you. And when we reject the person, do we not put the same pain that we felt by being rejected? Is it karma? What goes around comes around?

We try so hard to understand that when people reject, it’s not the end of the world yet, and if you don’t succeed the first time, try again. To some, they have tried only few times that they finally succeeded, but to some, they try so hard, and yet still haven’t got anything yet.

The patience of one man does not stay forever thick as it grows thinner by the day when we urge for something and yet can’t get hold of it. “Patience is a virtue” to some people’s mind, but it is not true to some as the emotional build ups is so immense that the patience disappears and loneliness and misery kicks in to people’s mind. Thinking positive is good, but to some, it just won’t work. At times we just cry, keep quiet, stare blankly and the mind goes into limbo, thinking that if there is someone there for us.

Scream out if we can to say, “I want someone in my life that I can cherish and love!” But who can hear but yourself. It is just ourselves that we try to make it work and no one else. To give up is so easy, but the hurt will be starting to creep in, to be positive after rounds of rejection are also hard, but it’s not easy too as we need to heal yourself after the endless negative bash from the other party.

Be a loner, be a heart of stone, and let yourself to be that way and hurt will keep it at its bay. If we try to be that way, we would remove of what some other feels. But to be a person to have another in your life, take it up with great strength, as rejection is always an enemy around the corner and if we are wise to avoid its lashes, we will be fine, but once we are not careful, hurt is what we will get.